What am I eating?!!

I think I'm in one of my non-binge swings. I'm not feeling particularly drawn to food. I'm handling the difficult things life throws my way pretty well. I'm slowly, but actually, changing the way I think about things (perhaps examples will come later, but I want to stay focused for now on my topic). But, I think I still consume more than I need to. Am I even within a healthy caloric intake, regardless of how I feel? I have no idea. So, I'm actually going to look at what I ate today--all of it--and figure this out, taking into account that this is not a representative sampling, but it does count for something.

Breakfast
English muffin (140)
2 TBS peanut butter (190)
1.5 slices cheddar cheese (150--this is an estimate, but the website says 1 oz=115)
1 shot espresso (9)
1 cup skim milk (85)
Total: 574

Lunch eaten at Hoggy's BBQ (I really have no way of knowing b/c this restaurant doesn't have calories posted online. I emailed them, but until I hear back, I'm going to make some estimates (hopefully on the high side) based on other restaurants' listings and/or recipes.)
1 4" pulled pork sandwich: 450
1 cup (as opposed to bowl) of potato soup: 250
12 oz Great Lakes Dortmunder:180
Total:880

Dinner
English muffin (140)
1 egg (75)
1.5 slices aged cheddar cheese (150)
1 cup plain nonfat yogurt (125)
6 oz lemonade (75)
1 shot bourbon(70)
Total: 635

After Dinner
3/4 cup Jeni's Buckeye Road ice cream (I should go downstairs and look, but this is already too depressing!)
12 oz Bell's Expedition Stout (400??? These websites aren't reliable, so I don't know)
1 square Lindt's 70% cocao

Bottom Line: before I even made it to all the after-dinner treats I had consumed 2,089 calories. Wow. I'm not going any further--this is too upsetting as is. 325 calories were from alcohol drinks during the day. The entire after-dinner line-up needs to be eradicated. I don't usually drink during the day or go out for lunch--that's just because of this workshop I'm attending. So if I ate better for lunch and had no alcohol, maybe I could still have my after-dinner beer (not every one is going to be that high). Or maybe I could start savoring a shot of something in a snifter.

Things I won't give up: lattes (the caffeine & milk is very important to me, plus I drink it with no sweeteners & I feel good about that), real cheese (I'm not eating low-fat crap b/c it tastes like crap), eggs (yes, I'm keeping the yolk--it's the tastiest part!), English muffins (darkly toasted so they are crispy), and yogurt(I love dairy & I'm already down to the healthiest real yogurt you can get).

Things I can do in moderation: Alcohol and ice cream

Things I can give up: chocolate squares, lunches at restaurants, alcohol during the day time.

I'm noticing that I'm willing to give up behaviors, but unwilling to give up particular foods. Hmm...I think that's alright. When our insurance changes over in July, I think I might find a dietitian and get educated b/c I realize that I don't really know what I'm eating and how it's effecting me...that much has certainly hit home today.