Sabotoge

Not sure why I sabotage myself, but I'm pretty sure I'm doing it! I got up, exercised and was doing well with my eating. Then at 2:30 pm I had my dermatologist appointment b/c my skin is ridiculously dry, which is making it feel really tight, burning, and red in my face. I find out that all the Pierre I drink (minimum 1 bottle a day, but often 2-3 per day)is probably contributing to my problem. Apparently carbonation causes an increase in acid, a decrease in internal ph and is making my skin dry. Giving up Pierre is proving shocking. I thought water was safe--that all water was safe. Now, the one water I love is gone!

My dermatologist then said the red pattern on my face was exhibiting potential rosacea patterns and gave me a brochure which scared the mess out of me. There are all sorts of delicious foods that I'm no longer allowed to eat. Well, technically I don't have rosacea, so I can eat what I want, but that's not the message I was repeating to myself this afternoon. My doctor doesn't even know why my face is a little red. Sigh.

At this point tonight I'm no longer as freaked out. But from this afternoon forward I just thought of everything I couldn't eat anymore. Which sort of led me to eat junkish food this evening. I feel like I'm countering my workout, which sends me into a guilt-spiral. Ugh. I just need to relax. Not everything has to be so extreme.